I love Sarah :D
There isn't any crappy crummy nor happy day in the world which I can't share.
And know that she gets it even though the phone static is so annoying.
A problem shared is a problem halved yadda yadda yadda :P It's true.

I am practically begging for this Saturday to not RAIN. Goshygoshygosh. Yippee if peoples can come, the thunders clap and it starts to pour *shudders*
3 ppl can't make it so far, no moree pleaseee? :P
I dream of giant teddy bears and big big balloons *sudden image floats through head*
And teachers shld give prior warning, or at least allow the student to face them so that you know, you can SEE it coming, when they starts blasting with anger instead of a BOOMING EARDRUMS EXPLODING voice behind you that made me jump out of my seat and drop my pencil :O While it was supposed to be during test conditions *gasp*
What is with yelling people nowadays?

Detailed Study is scaring me. ESL sac is coming up too soon. GAHHH.
Buh-bye you, hello Methods!
♥ Michelle

I need this one day to be as close to perfect as it gets.
To be a reassurance that I really have not lost something, don't know what.
I want the people that matter to care.
Am I being too demanding? D:

And another thing that I've been mulling over...
My childhood best friend. I know him not.
I don't know where we ended, much less where to start.
It's not like the first time I've realised that the gap grows deeper each day.
But. Every. single. time. it hits me, it's like I've been slapped. again and again.
I had a dream, a nightmare, you could say. I guess I don't believe in that somehow we can magically unerase each other back into our lives.
I do miss you. The you I know, buried within the stranger I don't recognise.

MAM and ACC oh crap oh crap. (and indo and esl sighhhh)

FUJI! I had to login and check before I found out it was you xD Mysterious much? *glomps*
- Michelle

I'm here.

:)

People are capable of many great things, it's the motivation, the desire that makes the difference.
Don't you ever think you don't have it inside you.
After seeing first hand what it's like, I can't settle for anything less.
I won't, I refuse to.
It's weird. It's pretty effing amazing.

It still exists. Rare, but still.
What a cynical limited view I've been taking.
Go you, I'll cross all my fingers and toes. *CHEERS LIKE CRAZY*

On a side note, I'm like walking bad luck argh. In 4 days, I hv managed to
a) hv a stomachache for no reason in particular
b) fall down, bruise and injure my knees and palm, in which my tights SCRATCHED against it and it HURTS okayy T.T
c) bang my head on the car roof.
sigh.

hormones have made their home in me! :O haha how excitinggg.
beware of grumpiness and weariness :P
people i count on are starting to tire me out. now THAT is depressing.
demanding. taxing. hard to please.
maybe when it all comes down to it, i'm selfish, but i just can't see it.

well, take a good hard look at the people you trust.
ignorance is bliss, sure it is >:/

ps. oh and i must declare that Chris was my frontrunner, and then Poh. They both cook up a storm baby :D kthxbye.

One makes you feel worthless simply by existing.
One makes you feel alive simply by existing.
It's like a hole in the heart that gets emptied and filled up again.
Temporary, never permanent.

The older we get, the more complicated friendships are.
There's more to please, more to expect and we fall short.
Most of the time we have the nerve to expect in the other what we lack ourselves.

Gosh, I really need sleep *blinks*
It's never good to spend so much time thinking before I conk off...zzzz~
mam (oh dear) + acc (bloody mark-ups) + chem (omg) killed any brain cells I had. Indo. Crap crap crap :(
Masterchef made some of those brain cells regenerate though. Hahaha.

Heartquake.

Haven't been in the mood for blogging lately. It's like seeing your sentiments printed in black and white, knowing there's some things that could never be said no matter how desperately you want to. I could blabber on about superficial anythings, but don't know, just doesn't feel right.

Oh yeah, on my way to blogger, I spotted news about MJ and how he dressed up as a woman so that he could have gay sex. Seriously, who cares? Yeah, he's gone, so why not write a book telling all and breaking news?! $$$ much? Sheesh. Don't know how celebrities can stand having their lives, even after they passed on, being scrutinised and picked into pieces gah. And that people can actually swallow all this, and want more.

Not that life's been all that great. Holidays were awesome! I could sit at home all day and entertain myself. Bored of home? Go out and entertain myself :P School? Not so. All these thoughts and feelings I pushed away that I thought would dissipate to thin air all come back in a flurry.

All-girls' school seem simple as compared to this tangled web we weave, for all the rubbish reasons and drama you could possibly find to add to the equation. Not that we were dull people glued to our desk, but shit, that seems like paradise now.

Okay enough emo, bur-byee.

Now the Bandwidth Exceeded thing is really annoying the shit out of me, even though I thought I fixed it *stabs*

NS really snuck up on me, coz Facebook suddenly had status updates from everyone about NS, and I'm just like wth??! I saw Allan's update first, and he got picked (!) and I started running around like a headless chicken. Ran to the phone, called Sarah immediately. And she just texted hers without any reply, even though it was like, half an hr ago. (!!)

So, after she texts for me, we hung up and I call Christine. I was frantic and she was like, "Huh? Really ah?" HAHAH. After talking about Open Day, prom, my nails and maple, I call Sarah back. Both of us TAK KENA，so far. Don't even know how the system works and didn't bother to website it, coz Christine was like, the website must be going mad by over dunno how many 17 yr olds attacking hahahaha.

Anyway, after we both calm down, and Sarah taught Lei how to text, we went mad and started chatting and boiling the phone like nobody's business. WHOO! I missed that, and I think I really needed it. Just realised I've been kinda antisocial. ILY SARAHH<3>you're always always there for me. always.

I got my MAPLESEA. Hahahah finally. After 3 times of failed dls, I did it! Christine be proud of meee. She's been bugging me to continue playing for like, a year. But I'm too lazy to play hahaha genius.

I HAVE TO WATCH TRANSFORMERS 2! I have to watch it on a bigger-than-usual movie screen. TF1 really ignited the frenzy I'm in to watch it hahahha. OH. And I had the BEST CAKE EVER. Oreo cheesecake with choc biscuits, will be my bday cake FOSHO! YUMMM.

- Michelle